lost love

i thought you were gone
but you never really left
we just grew distant
and lost track of each other

then one day
when i touched the mirror
you were there
echoing in the rivulets of light

maybe our souls were just too entwined
so that we had to find our own peace
and we let go
as all lovers must

i remember how you used to move through the threads of life
and how it all sparkled in the soul
so magnificent
so easy for you
and so much insanity for me

your ease of life
still comforts me
all these years later

i can’t cry

it’s a sad fact
that your love
tore out that part
of my soul
where the ability
to relieve
the pressure
by letting go
was replaced
with a kind of insanity
that makes me
run full speed
into a brick wall
to prove
to you
that our love
will always be real