i have a crush on you

you don’t really know me
and i don’t know you

i hope to meet you
one day
and to be able
to say something witty
and cute

and then to say something interesting
that sparks your interest
and opens up the space between us
for comfortable conversation

but it’s so much more difficult
when i already feel this emotion

and i don’t know you

forgotten love

do you ever wake up
in the middle of the night
thinking about a long-lost lover
and wondering where they are?

like whispers in the night
our souls were so close
and then so far.

i can’t even remember
the sound of her voice,
just that it was so beautiful,
and so deep in my soul.

i wish i could remember.

love is a word

It can mean a lot of different things. Some people tell you that they love you all the time when they barely know you, while others almost never say anything about love at all even though you’re a big part of their heart. People are strange sometimes.

Love is an emotion

Love can be many different things in your heart, depending on where you are as a spiritual entity.  Love can be a soothing song that inspires you to greatness, or it can be an angry, hurtful demon that steals your peace and leaves you to rot in a box on the side of the road.

Are you in love?

Sometimes you meet a person, and it feels like your heart has been yanked out of your chest.  It’s almost as if your breath was stolen away.  It’s like being on a roller coaster as you go over a big peak and plummet down.  I used to enjoy falling in love, but anymore lately, love is almost a cuss word to me.  Being in love is nice when you’re young, but when you get to be older, love isn’t always a fun thing to enjoy.

Why don’t you love me?

Loving someone means that you care about them, usually, unless it’s some kind of emotional addiction trip.  There are plenty of people who think love is the roller coaster ride, but it’s not.  The roller coaster ride is just some chemicals that your body produces.  Love, in my way of thinking, is something deeper.  True love is stronger then emotions.

Lust and love are different things

Learning to differentiate is called maturity.  As you live and grow as a person, it becomes more and more obvious.  Sometimes you’ll be in a relationship and at first it feels like love, then it starts to feel like an emotional leech has attached itself to your soul and is just draining away that warmth and sense of self that you work so hard to maintain.

Pulling away from that kind of hurtful love can be painful, but it’s like ripping off a band-aid.  If you just yank it off, you’ll be better off in the long-run.  It hurts for a little while.  It really helps if you have friends to hang out with.  Go do something.  Go hang out in public somewhere.  Get a cup of coffee and read a book or something.  Distract yourself and it will go away.

Then when you find another connection, you’ll know better what to watch out for.  You’ll have a better idea of what good love is and what immature love is.  Mature love always gives more then it receives.  When you have good love, things are always getting better.  When your love isn’t meant to be, the universe will show you.  Just relax and keep living your life.

How much love do you need?

That’s kind of a trick question.  Love is something that you can never really get when you really need it.  The more you need it, the more difficult it is to find.  Only when you are able to transcend your need for love will you be able to really get any good love.  You may have just transcended your need for love.  It’s really that crazy sometimes.

It’s kind of like credit.  When you don’t have resources and you really need credit, no one will give you any.  Once you have a good job and you’ve got your finances nailed down, everyone and their brother wants to send you a credit card application or get you to purchase a new car.  Love is the same way.

secrets

what is more exciting?

the possibility of shattering our love,
or the magic of watching it shatter and disappear
only to reform as if by magic
in some new way

where are you?

it’s been ages
but you’re still a part of my soul

like a flaw in a perfect diamond

it makes me shimmer

and life goes on

the water echoes and splashes
and the light refracts all around us
and somehow it’s just the magic of god
or some network of infinite laws
that surpass our ability to explain
with mere words

and we’re still just people

crazy crazy crazy people

life goes on

i miss you

i was just thinking about you
and wondering if you were thinking about me
because it’s been a while since i’ve heard your sweet voice
and felt the tingle that you make me feel

and it’s almost time
for us to talk
and i’m a little excited

and then i call you
and your name pops up
before i dial
because you called me
just a few seconds earlier

i just love it
when that happens

somehow it’s you

every breath
escapes our soul
each drop
of life

walking along the beach
or in the sand of the lonely desert
the snake scurries away
the crab is washed away by the tide

and we continue onward
with the sand in our toes
and the sun on our necks

love for you

when you are here
it is easy to love you
the wind is clear
the birds chirp pensively
every step brings us closer
to where we are going

I hold your hand
and you guide me
through the parking lot
of life

The children play
and yell
and scream
about the insanity of existence
and the ducks
are always talking some nonsense
about nothing at all.

And somehow we just know
that it’s our love
behind it all.